high

It's best to blog when you're drunk.
Ok no not drunk but when you've actually consumed alcohol and let loose.
Yknow what I mean? ^_^
you can actually just let everything out hahaahahahaha.
Anyway im sad. im so so so so so so sad.
but hey actually im much happier now. Heh.
I'm back with my dearest ignatius.
And i love him so much. so so much. Always have and always will.
regardless of whatsoever shit that has happened btw us.
Idc I have still loved him FROM THE START.
So FUCK whatever you people have got to say.
Suck your own dicks and squish your own boobs bcos hey we don't give a flying fuck.
Aw.
But hahahahaha i'm sad. lalalalalalala.
I wish things were perfect.
<: p="">I just wish for everything to be great.
Heh.
I just want to be happy. I wish my mum was okay.
I wish everything was fine. And that my dad was okay too.
Fuck I just wish they are back together.
For everything to be fine between them.
Bloody shitties thats always complaining about parents quarrelling and such.
Listen the fuck up okay cuz dude, i'd rather have a pair of quarrelling parents than having a family that's missing parental figures.
Cuz it makes you so fucking lost.
With no one telling you what to do. As much as we teenagers hates being told what to do.
We actually NEED it.
Without it we become so fucking LOST.
I want that back. I want that control in my life back okay.
I really want it so much.
I'm so fucking jealous of everyone with a great family.
Especially my best friend. her family is so perfect in my eyes that I wish I was born in it.
Tho i don't know what goes on abt it behind closed doors, but at least her parents give a fuck.
When your parents are seperated.
No matter how much you love them or how much you care, it's never the same okay.
Everything would never be the same. Sure they still love you and blabla.
BUT IT DOESN'T FEEL THE SAME.