School :(

Sighpie.
I've been feeling so terrible lately.
Like when school reopened. I was so keen on getting back to studies and such.
But this week, I only went to sch on monday, and till today which is friday i've been absent all the way.
Idk why either. I guess I'm just lazy. But it's like...gradually I just lost motivation.
Though I know I can do it and tht I'll be able to score well in tests and such.
Academics aren't really a problem for me.
But once i didn't go for one day. Then two days. Then three days.
It just became a habit, once again.
I can't keep this up man. NO.
I have to start going and waking up early and stuff.
Idcidcidc.
No matter what I must.
Idw to lose this chance again.
Ugh.
What the hell is wrong with me.
I missed out on a math test today. And I missed out alot on chem and bio and whatever.
After days of not going. So...I sriously just wna stop going now but no no no no no NO i can't.
Okay. Bella. YOU MUST GO.
Wtf you're fucking 18 already and still in secondary three.
If others can do it so can you. -.- SHEESH.
But idk i'm just so.... :( bored. and. lazy. and.
AHH.
K this is so fucking annoying omg i hate myself wtf.