i love my parents.

I really hate th state my family is in.
Been awhile since i've updated, and I've never expected that the next thing I would be updating about would be this. wow.
but yeah, I feel horrible now.
Maybe it's my pms. (remind me to dedicate a paragraph to whichever form of god tht created humans and gave females a monthly periods of suffering for no apparent reason.)
Anyway.
Hah.
I feel so alone.
This sounds so typical. Idk if it is. But I feel alone.
I'm sure theres loads of other teens out there with broken families too, majority even worse than mine, perhaps with abusive parents.
Well. My parents have never laid a finger on me in my life.
I sound so much and appear so much like a spoilt brat.
You rly think I am? Lol.
Well. I was spoilt. Used to be spoilt rly well.
I could change my phone monthly. 50 bucks for pocket money per day.
New bag every week. New shoes new clothes new hair.
Whatever I asked for, I would get it.
Until my mother decided that my dad wasn't good enough for her and a guy with no job, no studies, no house, and 15 years younger than her would be better. Pure fuckery.
I miss my daddy, tht's all.
I can't insult my mum or say anyth about her because I don't want to hurt her and she's still my mother too. But oh I really want to say so many things, which I shan't.
(remind me to ask her for a slap.)
Can some logical self righteous smartass donkey just pop up on my fb or twitter or whatsoever comments now or smth and start knocking some of their logic and sense into me plz.

like a true only ley.
lolol.
I feel like a whiny bitch now sitting here pitying myself wtffffffffflyingfuckingfishingbutt.
Sometimes I feel totally positive and contented with my life,
then the next second i get all emo and fucked up.
Brain are you okay? Stop arguing with heart please.
What pisses me off the most is tht my mum always goes on about how ;
'this is life and this is fate nothing could be done about it, it was supposed to happen from the start.'
HALT WOMAN.
JUST STOP.
YEAH, STOP RIGHT THERE LADY.
*ER-HEM*. 
'Supposed to happen from the start' . You fucking kidding me?
So why don't I just go murder the prime minister now and when I'm charged in court,
i'll just be all like,

 *flips hair* and like 'well it was supposed to happen from the start anyway!'

I'd be damned if he didn't stick his middle finger in my face and pow-ed his little hammer.
motherplease.

HAHAHAHAHAH okay I am just kidding. (not.)

I just don't like th fact that she blames her little belief of 'fate' for everything that happens in her life and every mistake she makes.
HONESTLY I CAN'T STAND ANYONE IN PARTICULAR WHO BLAMES 'FATE' FOR EVERYTHING THAT THEY DO WRONG.
Those people have no sense of responsibility. Fullstoptheendenoughsaid.
*middle finger*. -_-
Well yeah.
Something goes wrong and oh it's fate's fault.
Another thing goes wrong and oh its her new husband's fault.
I do something that's not wrong, but, if she thinks it's wrong.
Le little wild thing called blame appears and sits on my head for no particular fucking reason.

^ I really wanna tell her this. Lol k kiddin. (not).


Anyway. At the end of the day. What else can I say.
She's still my mum. He's still my dad.
I was once swimming in his balls and shoved through her vagina.
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Ohgodwhy.

xoxo bye peepools muah.