Thoughts.

Well recently things has been okay.

Complaints complaints complaints, yup thats whats gna be in this post.

Things happen. Well, shit happens.

And apparently I feel like theres been alot of tht going on in my life.

Hahahaha I sound like some self-centered-full-of-complaints bitch.

But what the hell, this is my fking blog right?

HAH, DEAL WITH IT. LOL.

I'm sorry bloggie i love you bear with my full of angst-ness.

Hmmmmmm.

Im gna talk about a certain someone, whom I shall not name, you know who you are.

Well.

I know, you like me. But still. Okay wait before i go on.

I'm not being thickskinned blahblah whatsoever shit.

OKAY YOU KNOW WHAT i don't wanna bother explaining so tht ppl would have some fking good impression of me.

Like I said this is my fucking blog and i say whatever the heck I want if you hate it so be it I'm just letting out how I feel.

Goshhhhhhhhhh.

Omfg...Im really full of angst.

I think I need therapy )':

EWWWW i hate myself being like this. OKAY I SHALL BE NICEY NICE.

I shall not curse.

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fuck. HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAh omg yknow what I DONT CAREEEEEEE. *hairflip

Heh heh. Yup simple as that.

Anyway. ANYYYYWAY back to point.

I know tht you like me, and tht I said I liked you back.

But really, hmmm..things won't work out.

Its better we remain as friends.

But now I don't even know why you're so angry at me.

Gosh....

I just wanna be faithful to bourne, alright?

I don't want any more stupid problems like tht.

Its really not worth it and I'm not risking another relationship.

Besides, its just wrong.

And I myself feel like its wrong, and I feel like a bitch cos of whatever's happened already.

And I'm not going to let tht continue. I know its really selfish decisions,

but I'm thinking for bourne. Maybe for myself too, because I don't want anymore trouble or shit like that to happen again.

But still, I really hope you can understand.

I'm not expecting, I'm hoping.

I'm sorry. Truly, I am. I am sorry.

I also don't see why some people are so childish.

Kelvin, please. We were over sooo long ago..

Although I do admit tht I do think of you at times. Of course I do.

But I really cannot believe anything that you say or make myself trust you again.

You're just a liar in my eyes. These words are so hurtful, I know.

But I'm just being goddamn frank here, 101% frank and blunt.

Its hurtful, and I also do not want to continue hurting you, because I know that whatever I say,

would definitely hurt you.

So i'd rather not talk to you.

Just take care of yourself and live on, you know you can. Quit the acts.

Quit the 4 weeks thing. Quit wasting your life and start living it properly.

Thts the least that you can do for yrself okay?

Hm.

And i've made so many mistakes in life. Well, I am only human.

But people say that to make themselves feel better, and honestly I'm fucking disappointed in myself.

I know that I'm capable of doing things sooo much better.

I myself am very clear of what I'm capable of. Why am I wasting all my time like that?

I really do not know.

I'm just a lazy pig okay. I hate putting effort in anything.

I love getting things without effort at all. Lawl.

And thts gotta change you gotta work for things. Thts life.

How much effort you put in all turn around one day and gives you what you deserve for that amount of effort back.

With no effort, you obviously get nothing. And thts obviously what you deserve.

Yup.

So, from now onwards, I really need to change.

After march holidays tht is, I have to go back to school.

If I even am allowed to that is.

This life is so stupid, not going to school, slacking doing nothing at all. Fuck this life I'm dumping it in a fucking fire. Burn bitch burn MUAHAHAHA,

I can't wait to go back to school. <: