Lord, I can't get over him. Really. I don't even know what I'm thinking or what I'm feeling anymore.
It's been so long..soooo long.
I don't know why either. Hes really the first, you know? Why lord?
What makes him so special.
His attitude sucks. Hes kind of goodlooking? Well, he has a nice body.
But..he's fucking....annoying.
But .....so attractive.
Theres just something about him thats different.
Im crying again.
Its just amazing how his words can affect me this badly.
How whatever he says can just mean so much, though to him its just words.
I don't get it. WHY IS HE SO SPECIAL? ):
Help me, please. Help me get over him quickly. Help me forget all the memories.
Help me forget all his sweet words and actions.
Help me find someone else that's better than him, that can make me forget him.
His love for her..its so. Great.
How he doesn't get over her at all....just shows how loving he is.
And that very feature, appeals to me soooo much. Attracts me soso much.
It just sealed it.
The day in his room.....
I CAN'T FORGET HIM.
I REALLY CAN'T. I CAN'T FORGET ANYTHING.
EVERYTHING I DID WITH HIM , ALL THE MEMORIES, EVERY , SINGLE, FUCKING, TIME I SAW HIM.
HIS SHIRTS. THOSE T-SHIRTS.
BUT NOW....HES...HES SOME @$^*^%$# SMOKER. SOME REBELLIOUS FREAK.
Ive reached the point where i've no more tears to shed for him.
No matter how terrible i'm feeling inside, my tears won't fall. Its like..im immune to it.
I just want those times....where he was so sweet.
To happen once again....just once. I was so happy..that happiest I've ever been since my mum was gone.
That day at the beach..............haha coconut juice.
His voice...his jokes. But now......hes some mean motherfucker.
But...i know somewhere inside him, hes still there.
Hes just like that because of his friends...and of eleanor.
I love him lord. So so much. I just want him to be happy.
If he is....i would be happy for him. Though not for myself.
But i wouldn't ask for more, just to see him truly laugh once again.
Truly enjoy his life. Truly move on and be happy.
Lord, please help him.
Help him be happy again. Help him go down the right path.
Help him to realise how much of an idiot he's being..how idiotic the way he thinks is.
Please guide and take care of him, help him be happy.
Don't let him do anything stupid. Don't let anything happen to him.
He needs you now lord..
It's been so long..soooo long.
I don't know why either. Hes really the first, you know? Why lord?
What makes him so special.
His attitude sucks. Hes kind of goodlooking? Well, he has a nice body.
But..he's fucking....annoying.
But .....so attractive.
Theres just something about him thats different.
Im crying again.
Its just amazing how his words can affect me this badly.
How whatever he says can just mean so much, though to him its just words.
I don't get it. WHY IS HE SO SPECIAL? ):
Help me, please. Help me get over him quickly. Help me forget all the memories.
Help me forget all his sweet words and actions.
Help me find someone else that's better than him, that can make me forget him.
His love for her..its so. Great.
How he doesn't get over her at all....just shows how loving he is.
And that very feature, appeals to me soooo much. Attracts me soso much.
It just sealed it.
The day in his room.....
I CAN'T FORGET HIM.
I REALLY CAN'T. I CAN'T FORGET ANYTHING.
EVERYTHING I DID WITH HIM , ALL THE MEMORIES, EVERY , SINGLE, FUCKING, TIME I SAW HIM.
HIS SHIRTS. THOSE T-SHIRTS.
BUT NOW....HES...HES SOME @$^*^%$# SMOKER. SOME REBELLIOUS FREAK.
Ive reached the point where i've no more tears to shed for him.
No matter how terrible i'm feeling inside, my tears won't fall. Its like..im immune to it.
I just want those times....where he was so sweet.
To happen once again....just once. I was so happy..that happiest I've ever been since my mum was gone.
That day at the beach..............haha coconut juice.
His voice...his jokes. But now......hes some mean motherfucker.
But...i know somewhere inside him, hes still there.
Hes just like that because of his friends...and of eleanor.
I love him lord. So so much. I just want him to be happy.
If he is....i would be happy for him. Though not for myself.
But i wouldn't ask for more, just to see him truly laugh once again.
Truly enjoy his life. Truly move on and be happy.
Lord, please help him.
Help him be happy again. Help him go down the right path.
Help him to realise how much of an idiot he's being..how idiotic the way he thinks is.
Please guide and take care of him, help him be happy.
Don't let him do anything stupid. Don't let anything happen to him.
He needs you now lord..
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