Xx.

2kg gone, 12 more to go.
Ouch.
Lol, I can doooo thissssssss.
Kuaidianbecomeskinnyplz.
Bonez,comeout.

Hi, I'm human.

Hellooo.

Hahaha.

It's 5:38am now and I can't sleep. Omnomnommynomzzz why :( and I thought my bodyclock was fixed. Farkit. Anyway haha.

Why must some of you people.

Come and hurl insults at me.

Condemning me for the way I look.

When I have never.

Ever.

Said shit about you?
Wait not only that ya,
WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO TH NAME OF THE FLYING BALLZ OF HELL YOU ARE? -.- what the flippin fuckery.

DID I INSULT OR OFFEND YOU INTENTIONALLY HUH HUH HUH?!

DID I?

DID I ?!?!?!

Er lemme guess....
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I NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT YOU?
SO INSULT ME FOR WHAT FUCK HUH?!?!
BITCH PLZ.

suck on my beautiful finger. 

I don't get what the fucking hell you have against me.

Maybe you just don't like me for being me. Maybe you can't stand that I'm better than you.

Maybe you hate my face.

Maybe you hate my voice.

Maybe you just hate everything about me for no reason you know? 

Maybe I'm that very girl you'd love to punch for just no reason at all.

Yup.

Just maybe. 

Oh why do I even care.

I'm still here. I'm still alive.

I'm still breathing.

Your words won't bring me down.

You don't and won't affect ze queen bella, twat. *hairflips.

So why am I MIA-ing from facebook? 

Well.

Your words are hurtful. It pisses me off and yup, makes me upset.

But that doesn't mean it affect, AFFECTS me.

WHAT'S AFFECTING ME IS HAVING TO FREAKING REPLY YOU AND DEFEND MYFUCKINGSELF, MY DAMN DIGNITY AND EVERYTHING WHICH WASTES LIKE SO MUCH OF MY TIME I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE POINT OF ME HAVING A FACEBOOK IS ANYMORE.

SHEESH.!

I was never the kind of person that would let others step all over me like *pikpakpiakpokpum!* 

AND, I WILL NEVER BE THAT KINDA PERSON.

So fuck you, fuck your mother, your father, your whole family, fuck everything about you. Your grandma and your house, fuck those too, your school, your friends, your boyfriend your girlfriend fuck them too, fuck your bag your phone your wallet, everything. Fuck all of it. 

Gudbye and have a bad terrible day where you walk on the street then get banged by a lorry then you fly onto the railway of an mrt line and get banged by the mrt then you get hung on the side of the mrt window and get dragged from pasir ris all the way to jookon and from there fall into a hot pot of oil in all the factories and get eaten to death by crows okay now bye. 

I'll be back on facebook ten times better than I already am in awhile, lets see what you're gonna say about me then. _|_

Doooodooodaaadeee.

Wearing my baby's shirt makes me feel happy :3 . But it makes my boobs disappear wtf k wtv HAHA. |:
Anyway.
I guess life's gettinggggggg. Better?
no.
hahahaah i still feel so lost wdf...there's no direction for me and idk why. Srsly.
What should I do..
lol.
Ever since....everything. Yeah. I'm just like.
How to say ah. aiya fuck la idk how.
lol just like. I don't know where to go or what to do everyday,
I don't see a purpose in anything at all and I know i'd even feel indifferent if I were to die. (:

I reallyreally do. Cos everytime someone asks what's wrong.
And I decide to try to talk to someone abt my problems. tadaaaa I go speechless. like a retard that
doesn't know how to talk. ._. lol.

Yeah, fuck you _|_
Now I think that this is one of the most stupid, pointless, retarded, meaningless quotes ever created.
I always fucken tell myself this.
BUT I STILL FEEL LOST LEY?
Live your life and be happy with yourself inside and out and blahblahblah.
Yeah, everytime I tell myself.
'As long as I'm happy, can already.'
But. Oh yeah. I'm not happy. LOL.
OHGAWD HAHAHAHA WHY AM I SO DUMB. CHEYYY NO WONDER THE QUOTE LIKE NO MEANING ONE. #OHISEE.
LOL. Okay I am such a complainy whiny drama-mama emo lil bitch on my bloggie.
Heheheheheheheehehe dontchu just luv this side of me that I only show here? (:<
My facebook like one happy little peacock ah. 
Throwing temper joking here and there. LOL. twitter, not even that active so fuck that.
Here like. Emolala.
HAHAAHAHAHAHAH. WHY AM I SO INTERESTING? *le thickskins.
HAHAHAHA KAY ENOUGH. LOL. *maintain*
Anyway hahah.

^ this speaks for itself and speaks for me too, haha.
Exactly how I'm feeling right now. 
How? (: huh how? (: huh huh huh?
Hahahah is there any major in psychology/the human mind blabla reading this now?
Or a therapist maybe?
LOL. K. hahahahaha.
I don't even know how or even want to open my mouth and talk to my boyfriend about things.
Or my friends even.
I don't feel comfortable sharing things with my bf idk why. ._. like. not to this extent yet. LOL..
can't totally be myself around him yet. *le sighs.
Friends it's like...later you think I attention seeking then I slap your face for thinking that how?
AHAHAHAHAHA K JOKING. LOL.
But ya I hate being thought of as an attention seeker because I'm really fucking not. I love attention,
but I hate it for these kinda reasons.
I love people complimenting me, calling me pretty, happy, beautiful, sexy, funny, blabla.
And giving me all th attention for my bright side and looks and all.
But I hate attention being given to me about my problems and shit.
It's like....having sex with your bf in the middle of orchard road. Get what I mean?
Like some random nose poking into what is deemed private.
Lol.
Sigh.
yeah. I feel kinda better now. I'm going to smoke.
I don't even know th point of this post lor LOL. Just needed somewhere to type in and let my feelings out in.
Oh gawd I love you blog, lets be fwens with benifwits okiedokieeee? ^-^
*humps my lappy* HAHAHAHA K KIDDIN. HAHAAHAHAH.
I AM FUCKING GOING RETARDED I'M BLOODY JOKING WITH MY BLOG WTF.
-__________-

*le adds random photo of me when idk what else to type.

HAHAHAHA okay bye. I'm going to update often from TODAY ONWARDS (:<
my dada doesn't mind lending me his camera now *winkwink. you know what this means...
it means i'm going to have cam sex with my own face every minute of th day yeah thts what it
fkin means fkyeah okay gudbye peepools luv ya fr reading until here if you did LOL :*

hi. meh.

Hi im really bored. Hahahahahah. And omg you can see the pimples on my face in this pic ^ .
I have no idea why but those pimples are just like ...stuck with me.
It won't go away no matter what. Always that spot. -.- irritating fucks.
Well anyway.
I'm feeling..upset? Hahahah. I dont know why.
SIgh. Life just feels so lifelessy pointless to me now. I'm not schooling or working.
Like so useless.
Well. I miss having a mum around.
Oh god why does this sound like my mum is dead. No, she's alive. Very much alive. LOL.
I mean, I miss having her around as mum, nagging at me, in my house here.
My life has had always been going down hill since...sec 1.
Idk why. Lol. I think it's just me. I don't really putting much effort or my 101% in anyth anymore.
Hmmm. Yeap.
I didn't know family matters could rly affect me for so long.
It's been....4 years? Hah.
I thought it would just be okay after awhile, but my family means alot to me.
I wouldn't say I'm not over it, I am. But. There's always times where I'm just sitting here missing the old times of really having a 'family' family.
Like a family family. A family with a family feel. Well anyway. Things just suck so much.
I wanna start doing productive things. Yeah.
Stuff that's gna get me somewhere. Then I wouldn't feel so fucked up and stuck in th same position as th years pass again and again. I've been like, stuck here. For 3 years. Gosh.
I'm sick of it. Anyway. I've totally lost the mood to say anyth else here , lol forget it bye.